RENEWED HOPE- A SHORT STORY
Valsala Menon
Vibha stood by the window fiddling on her sari. She was in a
daze, thinking back to her luncheon with her old school mate Jyothi.
Vibha had found her long lost best friend from school Jyothi
on Face book, and immediately they had connected, exchanged numbers and
promised to meet. Surprisingly enough, Jyothi was in the same city as she was,
and they had arranged to meet up the
very next day for lunch.
Vibha had dressed in a simple yet graceful kurti and jeans
and had arrived early to meet Jyothi at her favorite eat out in the city.
“Wow! Vibha, you seem to grow gorgeous with age! “– smiled
Jyothi as she hugged Vibha. Jyothi had trooped in unobserved and had given her
a shock by exclaiming thus.
Vibha smiled back placidly; Jyothi looked the same, but over
the years, her graceful slender figure had rounded out and she looked every bit
a motherly matron, even though she still displayed a grace and elegance in her
style. After exchanging pleasantries, both of them launched into animated
conversation, catching up with all the news over the years. Jyothi had given up
teaching to be a full time wife and mom, and while Vibha had held down several
jobs, she was yet to catch up on her dream….
As Vibha gently tasted her dessert, she caught Jyothi
looking wistfully at her.” Vibha, do you realize how pretty you are? More
pretty than you were back at college; your eyes still have the same sparkle and
your face radiates the same innocence.”
Much to Jyothi’s horror, Vibha‘s lovely eyes welled up in
tears.
“What happened, Vibha? Did I say something wrong? “
“No Jyothi, let’s go, I need to get back home.”
They paid their bill and walked back home in silence. “I
will call you in a while, Jyothi, please, I am upset. You know I have never
been pretty; you are just being kind to me. Please don’t be. I know what I am.
“
Jyothi looked at her in surprise.” Vibha, don’t tell me that
even after all these years, you haven’t gotten over what your mom said long
back!”
Vibha couldn’t speak, she knew that if she continued to
linger, she would break down in loud sobs. She just hailed down a nearby cab
and got into it and hurried away, leaving Jyothi standing at the kerb.
Vibha got back home and cried her heart out.
It was all because of her mother. Her thoughts went back to
the day when she was 13 years old. She
had just got back from school and noticed that her mom was busy folding a brand
new silk sari.
“Wow! Whose is that? Amma, is it yours? New sari?”- Vibha
asked in wide eyed innocence.
“No, not mine; Shubha is getting married, right? Lakshmi
Aunty brought it for her.” Vibha‘s sister Shubha was engaged to be married. There
was an 11 year gap between the sisters, and while Vibha was a thin and gawky
teenager, Shubha was in the prime of her youth and considered the ‘beauty’ of
the family. Lakshmi, her mom’s aunt had just gifted Shubha with a lovely
Kanchipuram sari.
“Oh! Why dint Lakshmi aunty bring me something too? She
always does.”- pouted Vibha.
“Why on earth should Lakshmi aunty get you anything at all?
Do you deserve anything? Look at you! Scrawny rat! Compared to Shubha, you are
nothing! She is so pretty, while you look like a scrawny spider!”
Vibha stood rooted to the spot, shocked beyond measure. She
gazed at herself in the mirror, and found her mom to be true. Yes, she was all
angles, while her lovely sister was curvaceous and graceful. Tears welled up in
her eyes, and she wept her heart out.
It was only to her best friend Jyothi did she confide about
her mom, and her very unkind remark.
Years later, Vibha had grown into a slender graceful woman,
with lovely dark eyes and a beatific smile, but her mother’s words continued to
mar and blind her vision to the truth. She continued through college without
ever allowing herself to fall in love. She had internalized her mother’s
opinion and continued to live through it.
Vibha got married eventually to a journalist, and she too
was a gifted writer. It was her pet dream to be a recognized writer of renown
and pen down her own novels but something kept holding her back from
accomplishing her dream.
Jyothi did not contact her over the weekend. On Monday
morning, Vibha had a call from Jyothi.
“Vibha, I am coming over. We need to talk”.
At 11, her doorbell rang and Vibha smilingly opened the door
to her best friend.
“Get dressed. We are going out”- Jyothi
“Where to?”-queried Vibha in surprise.
“Hmm, to exorcise some of your ghosts. Come on, hurry up… I
am gonna take you to a friend of mine.”
Jyothi gave no time for Vibha to protest. She bundled her
into her car and drove down to Jyothi’s friend Anita’s place.
“Anita is a clinical psychologist, Vibha, and a close friend
of mine. I have spoken to her about you, and how you need to get over your
mother’s comments long back. It’s hampering you, Vibha.”- Jyoti
Vibha felt suddenly light and relieved at the same time. She
had needed help but now she was happy that her best friend had initiated the
process.
Anita looked just
like anybody’s friendly neighbor, and after serving cups of hot tea, Anita
invited Vibha to her room.
“Vibha, you seem to be a very nice person. Jyothi told me that
it’s your greatest dream to be a writer. I know too that you have enrolled for
a creative writing course with a foreign university. Tell me, I am your friend.
Shall we talk? Just think of me as a friend and keep talking.”
Anita gazed at Vibha with so much compassion and
understanding, that Vibha could hardly prevent her tears from flowing
unhindered. All her pent up feelings and frustration and the layers of hurt
that had accumulated deep within her as a child welled up in tears and amidst crying, she managed to
talk and let the past flow out of her .
After an hour, Anita smiled down at her kindly.
“Vibha, you need to bury the past. For your own good,
forgive your mom and let go. I know that it was a very unkind and thoughtless
remark that your mom made, , but internalizing it has prevented you from
growing as a person, as a writer. I know you write well, I have read several of
your blog posts on FB. Jyothi sent me the link. What you need to do, is to get
to work on your self esteem. Believe that you do not need any body’s approval.
All the approval you need is from yourself.
Remember, you are not the thin gawky teenager you were so
many years ago. Now you are a matured and graceful young woman, with a family
of your own. Next time someone compliments you, accept it. Just say, Thank you.
Now I want you to write your mom’s hurtful comments on a
piece of paper and before you leave this place, burn that piece of paper. Let go. Forgive your Mom as the paper burns
Go home, and work on your writing. Believe in your heart
that you are born to be a great novelist. Good luck”- Anita hugged her while
seeing Vibha off
Vibha made up her mind to do as she was instructed and for
the first time in years, she felt light. Jyothi drove her back to her
apartment, and while getting out, Vibha hugged Jyothi and whispered a tearful
‘thank you”.
“Don’t thank me, pretty lady, go work on your dreams. Let me
see your short story in print”- grinned Jyothi.
Vibha smiled back happily and Jyothi drove back home feeling
relieved that Vibha was on the right track after all. She was letting go of
those hurtful comments.
Two months later, Jyothi received a call. It was from Vibha.
“Jyothi, can you believe this? I am getting my first book of
short stories published, by Random House.!And one of my short stories has been
selected for the Chicken Soup series.” Vibha’s voice displayed her emotions.
“Wow! Great news Vibha! I am so happy for you. Let’s
celebrate. I am coming right over”
Vibha was waiting with her husband at the gates of the
apartment, as Jyothi drove down. She got down and hugged Vibha.
“I have dedicated my book to you, Jyothi. If not for you, I
wouldn’t have penned all this down “- happy tears glistened in Vibha’s eyes,
and it was all Jyothi could do to hug her tightly.
Vibha was now truly flying high on the wings of self
confidence and renewed hope.
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